4 weeks and counting...

Wow... 4 weeks and my husband will be back from deployment. This is my first deployment of many and let me say, it has been one emotional roller coaster. I can see the light at the end now, so I know i have made it. While in the midst of all this time has seemed to stop. But looking back to saying goodbye time has really moved. I have learned a lot about my husband through all of this, and most important about myself. I have learned how strong I really am. I know that I can make it through the toughest seasons in my life and still come out with a smile.These last few weeks have been the hardest. I have been going from friends house to friends house. I am so thankful for them, but really looking forward to a place of my own! I believe escrow closes on our home Nov 24. So I will be at ease when I have those keys in my hand. It will be such a mix of emotions as everything is coming down to the wire... ahhh....  love my life and my husband. I wouldnt change it for anything!

Well... 1 year has passed

Hmmm... where to start. I guess I will sum up my experience with YWAM. This was a very trying time in my life, marriage and just a season God was teaching me to depend on Him. I had such am amazing time with my new found faith that was stronger than ever and living my life with my new family. Annie, Alex, Reanna,Katie and the Tores family really became family to me the 3 months I was there. I had some personal reasons on why I left the trip early, but I know it was the best  decision for my husband and I. I still pray for those who are there and are still being his hands and voice, I pray for those who came home and still follow the lessons learned and for those who have fallen off his path but are trying to find their way. I pray for each and everyone of you! I thank you for what you thought me and know youll all be in my heart!

 After the month I came home (back to SD) I packed up all my stuff and drove cross country to Florida where I now call home with my husband. We are going to be stationed there for about 3 years. This has been a hard transition for me and I know that God is always here for me, but a lot of the time it hard to feel Him. I suppose its because I dont allow enough quiet time...

My husband left for deployment May 31, 20010 and it had been so hard on me I miss him so much. My heart is just so sad while he has been gone, and to be honest sometime life just sucks. I dont know why I believe the lies being fed, but sometimes it hard to see and understand Gods plan in all of this. I cherish our memories of our "honeymoon" ( first family vacation) and the love i have for him in my heart till he gets home. We just hit the halfway mark so just about 90 more days and my love will be home.

UPDATE!!! Week 1-8

Well I have not updated this in forever! SO what to say... hmmm... God has been doing amazing things to me these last few months. I have really realized what allowing God to love me means and also to allow others to love me. I have learned so much about the character of God, inner healing, worship and so much more! But we have been doing outreach to a daycare once a week. We also did an outreach in Tabarcia. It is about a 45 min drive south west from San Jose. We also went to Poas today and it was so much fun. It was so cold but really fun! Its was so beautiful there. Well thats all for class....

I have been learning so much and God is teaching me so much that I feel like I am a little overwhelmed. I am thinking about going home at the end of lecture phase around Sep 23. I am still praying about it, but I do believe that my mind is made up. I will be sad to leave but I have my reasons why. I know that God is going to use me anywhere I go so I am really excited for this next year to unfold. I am also excited about planning the wedding!

first few days in CR

HOLA! so the first few days have went well. I have been a little homesick but everyone here is so sweet and I know God is doing amazing things. I have been a little frustrated with the language barrier. The weather has been good. I have not seen any rain in 3 days which is abnormal. but I will upload pics soon. Off to the city :) love you!

2 weeks and counting

Well I am down to just over 2 weeks until I leave for Costa Rica. I have so much on my mind tonight. I just got home from Florida today and saying goodbye was one of the hardest things I have had to do. I know that God has amazing plans for me there, but am human in that I dont want to leave Karl and my family for so long... I never thought it would be this hard.... I pray everyday for my desire to continue, but I feel like I am having doubts. I am still going and I know that this is where God wants me, but my flesh is fighting it every bit. Please pray for my desire to obey God and the desire to be "used" to continue and to be strong. I have almost everything I need for my trip and I really am excited to go, but just scared I guess! I have faith that God is working all these fears out, and I wouldnt have much faith if eveything was easy....

64 days and counting

Hello all!

I am just trying this out.... I am getting all my stuff in order for my trip to Costa Rica for my 21 week adventure. I never thought I would really do such a long missions trip, but when God told me I listened. There is still so much that I need to do, and creating a blog is not off my list! ha ha well I guess I can give a little background on why and how this whole thing came about....

About a year ago I knew God was really putting this on my heart. I have the desire to do a missions trip, but didn't know really where to start. After searching around I asked the girls in my small group about YWAM. And by devine appointment Kellie ( a real blessing) had done a similar trip. So we got together and talked about it. I had felt like God was calling me to Central America, but for my own reasons not of his I really wanted to go to Europe. So I applied to Switzerland. I didn't get in and I was going to give up. I was so upset. But I could still feel his leading to keep trying.... So I applied once for the Jan DTS and again, things fell through cause my doctor wanted to run some tests and would not clear me. Finally 3 months later I got in to the DTS in Costa Rica.... Imagine that. Where God was calling me all along :) Later I realized that my timing and Gods timing are never the same, and I am never going to win that battle. To be completely honest I prefer it that way. So as I am getting ready and submitted all my stuff, a wonderful man comes into my life. His name is Karl. He is truly a Godsend blessing and We got engaged 3/27/2009. He has been such a rock, blessing and everything I have been praying for. This is going to be such a challenge to leave him and my family for over 5 months, but I know that God comes first and I have to be obedient to Him. With all of that said I leave July 2 2009 to begin this amazing journey and I pray that through my experiences and my blogs that it brings a small blessing to your life and that you DO SOMETHING!

Isaiah 40 28- 31: "Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."